I’ve Got Feelings Yes I Do, I’ve Got Feelings All.Over.The.Place.

While I was in GA I had some melancholy moments. My mood was occasionally dreary, my tears were plentiful and right at the surface, just waiting for one.little.thing to open the flood gates.

Why? It’s not exactly one thing, more of a combination. I feel the weight of my friends who are struggling; I feel helpless. Some instances (memories) of my childhood were brought to my attention recently by someone who knew me when I was a little bit of a thing and they took me down a deep hole of WTH? My Aunt and I had a clarification of an incident that happened when I was 15 that took us both by surprise. Also my whoremoans hormones might be showing off. Luckily my Aunt Trisha isn’t phased by my crying and can often join in with me. Then we have a good laugh, especially when it comes to my upbringing and how I persevered. She was also a witness to some of it, although not there consistently enough because of living distances.

I did take the time to write a slew of things down, thinking I might share at one point. Getting it down on paper laptop did feel cathartic.

Onward and upward, you’ve got a lot going on Suz!

A few cute things to share with you, some are mine, some are from the Internet Gods.

This might have been my Aunt Trishas face at one point.

To be clear and NOT make anyone worry, not of my concern is of my daughters or my main squeeze. We good.

Even my Fed Ex guy felt like I was checked out. He’s more intuitive than I thought.

One of these things is not like the other.

These two always brighten my day. Can you also appreciate a being who doesn’t care if they fit in or not, they’re still there for the party?

Here they are on our 10 hour drive home.

Thank the Good Lord I didn’t see any bodies flying out of vehicles this time.

If you really want to know what makes me chuckle? It’s stuff like this:

I still laugh even after reading it 15 29 times.

I can hardly get enough of the Happy Guy Happy Dog videos. If you haven’t seen them, you’re missing out on free JOY.

I watch them over and over. At first, I was thinking:

This song is SO annoying.

After watching 10 videos:

This song is so catchy!

When the dogs and I arrived home we were greeted with a home upgrade. We now have beach front property! The pool/lanai update has begun.

Lillie is wondering where all the lizards are that she loves to chase.

Mum. wher da yumi fast tings?

This Too Shall Pass.

My mood is lightening and the sun will shine again. Probably directly into my eyes, but you know.

Signed,

Your friend Suz who occasionally isn’t that damn chipper.

XOXO

19 thoughts on “I’ve Got Feelings Yes I Do, I’ve Got Feelings All.Over.The.Place.

  1. Oh friend, it’s okay not to be chipper. You have to let those big emotions go somewhere. I’m so glad you’re getting them out there.
    If you ever need to vent, I’m always down for a call or email.

    That bagpipe meme is funny. I had to read it twice to get it. Maybe it’s true about blondes after all. 😉

    Sending you lots of love.

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  2. Bijoux

    Sigh, but I know that your readers understand. My dad passed away in the month of October, so he’s on my mind at this time of year.
    I loved the picture of your dog in the wrong beds. So cute! But that song? Nope.

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  3. Maddie

    Aw Suz. I’m sorry things have been melancholy. I’m glad you have your Emotional Support Aunt and those two (omg the cuteness!!!) love bug puppers to wrap u in unconditional love n support. Please know you don’t have to be or blog chipper all the time. We love you just the way you are (to quote either Mr. Rogers or an 80s song). Sending hugs.

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  4. Oh my goodness, big dogs in small beds and small dogs in big beds. If that Durant brighten your day nothing will.
    Nice going on the doorstop beach. Don’t tell the gov’t, they’ll raise your taxes.
    🤣

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  5. So sorry you’re feeling down, Suz. That is difficult. Love an aunt who cries and laughs along with you. Hope things feel less low soon . . . and if they don’t after watching the hilarious dog videos, at least your face will freeze in a permanent smile that will leave people guessing. IS SHE SMILING, OR HAS SHE JUST BEEN WATCHING DOGS WAGGLE ALL OVER THE PLACE?

    That photo of dogs in mismatched beds is a keeper.

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  6. nicoleboyhouse

    Oh, my sweet friend. Things are so heavy in the world right now and with friends who are struggling and having health issues, I am sure it can feel like too much. I know this feeling! Also, I am in awe of you. I know that you had challenges in your childhood and upbringing, and you have overcome those challenges and obstacles to be an incredible, inspiring woman.

    That support dog though!!! Lolololol!

    I am excited to see the pool/ lanai evolution, although I’m sure it’s GREAT to have that beachfront property 🙂

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    1. You are right. The world is heavy and eventually, I was going to cave into the darkness. I’m kinda-sorta feeling like my normal silly self.
      Thank you so much for your kind words, they mean more than you can imagine.
      Having a beach so close has ONE big downfall—-sand in the house! 😉

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  7. I’m so glad you are starting to feel better! Terrible that the effects of your childhood can stay with you for the rest of your life! And your whores could be moaning too! Can’t wait to see the finished pool/lenai!

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