*Let Me Get This Out Of The Way.
*I’ve started this post a few times over the past (goes to calendar) almost three weeks and I need to just put it on the blog and move onto sunshiny things.
Lillie’s surgeon, who removed the large mast cell tumor said she probably didn’t need any further treatment, but said I could visit an oncologist just to be sure.
I don’t know if I fully expressed how much of an ordeal it was getting her prepped for the mast cell removal and all the complications prior to and after surgery. IT WAS A LOT. I was so happy when it was all said and done and didn’t want to take any chances of having to put her (or us) through it again, which is why I decided on a consultation with the oncologist.
Well Dr. Doggie Oncologist said she should be fine, but let’s keep an eye on her for recurring lumps and come back in one month.
The night that we had to put Callie down, I was hugging on Lillie when I felt some lumps. New lumps. It was just two weeks prior that I’d had a consultation with a Doggie Oncologist. TWO WEEKS.
We started her on an oral chemotherapy three days a week; along with Prilosec (to ward off stomach ulcers) and Benadryl. (the tumors put off histamines) she was doing fairly well, aside from her appetite decreasing.
Coach and I were gone for 12 days and my amazing mother in law became The Full Time Dog Nurse/Nanny.
When we got home, I found an even larger lump on her back and the others were increasing in size. Rapidly.

I’ll never tire of that photo.
I took her back to Dr. Doggie Oncologist yesterday and she confirmed my fears: The cancer was back and this time with gusto.
I had two choices. Put her on Palliative care for the duration of her days.
Or try another chemotherapy that she gets at the office once a week for four weeks, then every other week. She assured me that the injection takes less than 15 minutes and 80% of dogs have zero side effects; therefore she will still have quality of life as opposed to when humans have Chemo.
I opted for the injections. Even with those, we are just buying time.
You should have seen me in the Dr’s office yesterday. A blubbering mess. Wait, maybe you shouldn’t HAVE seen me. Anyhoo, I’m wrapping my brain around it all and we will move forward as best as we can.
Not looking for sympathy, really, but it’s something I need to blog about since it’s part of this blog’s history.
I have some funny shit to share and I’ll do it very soon. Like, maybe tomorrow.
XOXO

Oh no! I’m so sorry. I hope the injections buy you many good days with sweet Lillie.
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Thank you, Beth.
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Dammit.
It’s so Not Fair.
I’ll be thinking of you both. XO
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It’s not even a little fair. Thank you, Nance.
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Cancer is a bitch, that’s all there is to it. Whether in humans or pets.
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I agree.
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Cancer is an evil disease, all the more so when it consumes our four legged children. Quality of life says it all. Love her, spoil her, hug her… for as long as you can. Deciding when she’s had enough is the hardest decision we animal lovers ever have to make. Please know that when that time comes, we’re here for you.
💕
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She is currently being spoiled, which is only slightly different from her spoiling a year ago.
Thank you.
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No!!!!! This is too sad. Poor sweet Lillie. So hoping that the injections give her more time and that she feels like her feisty little self during that time.
Goodness, you’ve had a rough month. Sending a big hug.
I will never tire of that photo either.
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It’s been a month, for sure.
Thank you. XO
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Oh Suz! That really sucks! I hope she tolerates the chemo well and is able to have the best life possible! I’m so sorry.
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Thanks so much!
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So very, very sorry to hear this especially close to Callie’s moving to her eternal home. My heart hurts a lot for you especially because you are so heart-invested in any living creature – – from the beautiful delicate butterflies to most all other creatures. Praying Lillie’s last days are the best they could possibly be and her passing is pain-free and peaceful.
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Thank you, Lynda
We do adore our critters, and this is a hurt that no one wants to endure.
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How awful. I’m so sorry you guys are going through this again. You are doing all you can, so take comfort in that. XO
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We are doing the best we can, always. Thank you for your kind words.
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Quality of life needs to be considered first and foremost. I’ve learned that watching my own humans and pets and their struggles with terminal illness and aging. Wishing you strength in the coming days, Suz 💕
Deb
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We certainly are aiming for quality of life and not the quantity of days.
Thanks, Deb.
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Oh no, Suz. This is just too much! I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Sweet Lillie. xoxoxoxo
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It is too much, I agree.
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I’m sorry. These are the decisions that test your soul. I’m sure you’ll be able to handle it all, considering you want the best for Lillie.
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You stated it perfectly: testing my soul. Thank you for your kind words.
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FRIEND. What the hell.
And by the way, it’s okay to ask for sympathy. We are all human and requite love and care. You’ve had quite a couple of months. Let us give you that love and affection virtually. 💕❤️
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What the hell is right!
Thank you so much. We will get through this the best we can and I appreciate all the love. XO
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Oh, no! I’m so sorry. Give yourself some time to grieve and give Lillie all the walks and hugs and cuddles she can stand! Whatever you decision you make (and whenever), Lillie will have always had a true advocate on her side and will have lived her very best, most loved life.
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Thank you so much. I appreciate your positive and sweet words.
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Oh Suz! I’m so sorry. Sending you all the hugs and love.
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Thank you Gigi
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I recently went through a loss myself, and what I can wish you is to know no more pain after this trying experience ❤
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Thank you, you know the heartache too.
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It is good to get this out for you and for the records
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Oh my goodness Suz, this is just too much. I’m so sorry you are going through this…again, so soon, on top of everything else. Hugs to all of you.
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Thank you so much, Pat
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Thank you so much, Pat.
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